themiraclelady
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I was approached by an employee of store(usually see him doing the checking but he comes across as someone like an assistant manager. I do see him talking at times with a female manager). I can't remember his exact words but it meant that 3 times I was suspected or 3 times they knew I had shoplifted. The previous 3 months I had done this many times. I am disabled, on a fixed income, many medical problems including out of control diabetes, strokes, complications from diabetes(doctors and nurses were demanding that I eat the right foods and eat 3 times a day because the food aids the medications[and I am on high doses of oral and insulin]and the system in regulating the sugars. All of my money was going to keeping the roof over my head. I was under so much pressure. I was trying to study to pass my MT program so that I can get a job. These are not excuses. Anyway, this person was talking to me in lecture tones and escorted me out of the store telling me that I was to never come back to this store. "If I EVER see you here in this store I WILL call the police"! This is one of those grocery stores where you can get a card to save on select items in the store. I was using my fathers card from when I was living at home. My parents died and I used it as a way to stay close to my dad. I am in my early 50's. I use a walker. He did not take down any information like address, social security number, phone number or photo. I was not taken to a room. No police were called. If I have to go to say the drug store that is past this store I walk on the other side of the street or I take a back way that will get me to the drug store area. There have been a few instances where a police car that pulled into 7-11 parking lot and went into it and came out with a drink according to my friend and a minute later he turned left onto the street from the lot and stopped, talked on the phone for a couple of minutes and crossed through the intersection(about a half block from where I was talking to a friend)and parked there for about 10 minutes and then I started to walk down the street going that same back way to my house. I was about half block from where I was talking and the police car took off in opposite direction. In my mind he was talking about me. I might be getting paranoid. I don't know. Do you think that when I was banned from the store and nothing else was done to me that I am in the clear? Or do you think that they have(this happened on 9-05-2009) been going through the surveilance footage looking for more on me than what the store guy told me? I keep expecting a car to pull up, whether it is my house or on the street somewhere. I am so very sorry for what I did. I have never done this before in my life. I am also afraid this stress will lead to another stroke(my first stroke happened when I was asleep and when I woke up I didn't know who I was, what my name was, where I lived, did I have a mother or father, sisters or brothers, passwords, pins, etc...amnesia. It took a couple of days for what I was going to remember. It is hard to explain this because the brain is so complicated. Some things are erased from memory and there is other stuff that is like wires are crossed and these things do cloud judgement, decisions, etc. My neurosurgeon told me that I had many risk factors for stroke and each one alone is big enough to cause a stroke but at the top of the list is stress. He told me to take as much off my plate as possible to alleviate pressure. So, I am afraid that if I have a stroke like before affecting the memory that I will go into this grocery store and bam they will arrest me. I am so so scared I can't function)! I am afraid to go about my normal routine and go out in my neighborhood. I live alone with my cats.
