New York , I'm an adult and should know better, but I messed up big time. I've been shoplifting at a local retail store on a regular basis, last week I was caught. First offense. I am sick to my stomach from the moment I wake until I fall asleep. Yes, most probably because I was caught, however, I am greatly remorseful and I know I will never ever do this again; not ever. All the guilt I feel and humiliation of people finding out about this is not worth it. I did not admit any wrong doing, all items were in the open sitting in the shopping cart, the total was $151. I was asked if I had money to pay for it and I nodded that I did. There was nothing hidden on my person. They did photograph me holding a paper they had me sign stating that I could not trespass for two years. The police were called, I was taken in hand cuffs to the police station, I was not questioned, nor did I volunteer any information; I was photographed again and fingerprinted. I have a court appearance in two weeks. I hired an attorney. I was told that I would be pleading 'not guilty'. This was the biggest mistake of my life and really don't have a good excuse as to why I continued to take what was not mine, except to say the more that I got away with it the more I kept it up. The store wanted me to sign a paper that had to do with Civil Restitution; he said I had ten days to pay them $500, but I declined to sign it. I thought that since I did not sign that paper, that they would mail it to me, but it has been one week and I have not received anything in the mail from them. My attorney told me to ignore anything I get in the mail from them. I keep thinking that if they were to go back and watch surveillance video's for the previous few weeks that they will see me not going through a checkout and figure out that I have done this before and got away with it. Is there even a remote possibility that this could happen? Would this be considered evidence/proof that I had done it before? If the video shows me leaving the store without going thru a checkout can they charge me for those times also? How long do stores usually keep these video's? My mind is playing tricks on me and I can't eat or sleep. I am wondering why I have not received that Civil Restitution for the $500; could it be because there could be additional charges in the works? What is your best guess as to the penalties i am facing?