First, I think I am doing it because I have suffered from health problems for a long time and I feel like life has been unjust to me and I am unemployed (unable to work) because of the health problems and thus unable to get anything for myself that I would like to have.
Then there is the thrill.. I even lay in bed thinking of new ways to get more expensive items and it is like this rush of the planning and execution and getting away with it that seems to keep me going. I am worried that I am going to go for something I really can't get away with and screw my life over.
I read about how harsh it is on people that steal things as low as $15 or sometimes didn't even actually steal it they just couldn't prove their innocence. I have stolen at least, and this is no joke, at least around $700. The things being electronic stuff from the same store every time.
I mean I don't just go in there and pocket something. I go in there with tools and extract things from their packages so I can take more expensive items. I was even planning on how I could take a camera from the display by cutting the security wire and wondering if it sets off an alarm when you do (the tether that makes it so you can't walk away with a display camera only hold it.)
The point is.. If I don't figure out a way to stop doing this and just accept that I can't have things I would like until life gets better.. Then I could end up making things for myself far worse and learn the hard way that I have it pretty good already.
I am also wondering and this is an important part of my reason for posting. Can they arrest me or charge me with theft after the fact? Or put out an image from a security camera and have people looking for me like local police and such and search the place I live at? Or if I quit now.. Then I don't have to worry about getting arrested after stopping.
Thank you for reading and please anyone reading this if you get a rush out of what I wrote.. Seek help too.. As nice as it is to have the things without paying for them. It never is "enough" and you keep looking for the next bigger score. Which can be the last attempt you make.
The store was one that everyone hates so please don't yell at me. I am aware it was wrong and there is no excuse for theft. I am not here to look for someone to make me feel better about doing it so that I continue. I just need to stop before I get in over my head.
Then there is the thrill.. I even lay in bed thinking of new ways to get more expensive items and it is like this rush of the planning and execution and getting away with it that seems to keep me going. I am worried that I am going to go for something I really can't get away with and screw my life over.
I read about how harsh it is on people that steal things as low as $15 or sometimes didn't even actually steal it they just couldn't prove their innocence. I have stolen at least, and this is no joke, at least around $700. The things being electronic stuff from the same store every time.
I mean I don't just go in there and pocket something. I go in there with tools and extract things from their packages so I can take more expensive items. I was even planning on how I could take a camera from the display by cutting the security wire and wondering if it sets off an alarm when you do (the tether that makes it so you can't walk away with a display camera only hold it.)
The point is.. If I don't figure out a way to stop doing this and just accept that I can't have things I would like until life gets better.. Then I could end up making things for myself far worse and learn the hard way that I have it pretty good already.
I am also wondering and this is an important part of my reason for posting. Can they arrest me or charge me with theft after the fact? Or put out an image from a security camera and have people looking for me like local police and such and search the place I live at? Or if I quit now.. Then I don't have to worry about getting arrested after stopping.
Thank you for reading and please anyone reading this if you get a rush out of what I wrote.. Seek help too.. As nice as it is to have the things without paying for them. It never is "enough" and you keep looking for the next bigger score. Which can be the last attempt you make.
The store was one that everyone hates so please don't yell at me. I am aware it was wrong and there is no excuse for theft. I am not here to look for someone to make me feel better about doing it so that I continue. I just need to stop before I get in over my head.
