Faith Justice
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To whom it may be concerned ,
Hi ,
First , I'm not sure how this works , what should I ask , or not ask , so , I'm sorry if I'm doing it wrong .
This " thing " is eating me alive , and has been for to long .
So , I will really appreciate if someone can help me .
Back in 2011 , I was in Walmart store getting few things . I was in hurry , cause it was getting late and I was afraid to walk back home in dark . I came to store mostly cause I needed couple more cardboard boxes to finish packing , and since I was in store I got few more things ( milk , cookies , some snacks , etc.) .
I was checking out at self check line .
I was trying to scan box , but barcode was to far to scan , so I asked for assistance from cashier . She was checking the screen , and told me that I need to manually enter the code twice , for I told her that I tried both boxes . She's like " Just enter 2 , for two boxes , so you don't have to do another box whole entering " . I did that , finished scanning , paid , put things in my backpack , and at the exit grabbed both boxes from cart , and proceed leaving . I was approaching street when I heard someone calling " miss , miss .." .
At first I didn't pay attention , but it seemed like the voice was closer to me , so I turned around , and I have seen to people waving to me , and asking to stop . I yelled back that I'm in hurry , and what they need . They said , just wait , and I said , I'm sorry but I must go . At that point police car , which I didn't noticed even coming , crossed my way , stopped , police officer came out , around car , gabbed me and pushed against car .
As God is my witness , I didn't know what's going on . He was pushing me so hard while he was putting on handcuffs , that I started to cry ,asking him , please , stop , you're hurting me . What's going on , why do you doing this . At which point he start laughing , and people that were behind me , also approach us . Police officer then asked them what I did ? They told him that I didn't pay for one cardboard box . (All my stuff was already on the ground when police officer grabbed me , he also grabbed my backpack from my back and throw it on the ground , and I believe I just let boxes out of my hands when he was handcuffed me .). He replied that he knew as soon as he saw me that I must have been stealing . They said , they are security , and that they need me to go back to store . I was still crying cause I was in pain . I told them that I didn't steal anything and they can check receipt . One of them said that they didn't see me scanning two boxes , just one . And they will check receipt once we get to store .
I told them , please , it's getting dark and I have to go home . And then officer pushed me even harder saying " You think you're going home ? That "b... not gonna happen so soon . And once that happens , you will tell your Bosnian people that they are in America , and they can't do what they doing . And I know b.... that you didn't steal box , you stole all this things you have with you ." Then he said to security people that they can take everything from backpack , and boxes , cause he's sure I stole everything . I wasn't feeling well , I asked security guard to help me .
They were just standing there . I was bagging them to help , cause I don't feel good . Officer pushed his elbow against my back and I just fainted . I remember screaming at that point . I remember security telling officer that they can take it from there , they just need me to go back to store and clear things up . I remember being so scared , I thought I'll pass out , from fear . I remember , even now , at this very moment , like reliving it , officer telling them to take things and let him take care of me . By that time , I was still on the ground , he's foot on my back , pain in my arms , face , legs , chest , head , against ground . I remember , I said , please , please let me go , it's hurting , please I'm not feeling well .
I felt my seizure coming and I was so scared , as always when I know that I'm about to have seizure . After that moment , everything is like nightmare , horrible , never forgetting nightmare . I have recollection , pieces of memory , pause , horrific realization that is not just nightmare of past , of things happen in past , but reality , happening there and then , where and when I believed in safety . I remember there was ambulance , voices , someone saying " You'll be ok " , " Can you tell me your name " , I was trying , but like most of the time after seizure I can hear , I can see , but I can't respond , and I don't remember when exactly started or ended . I remember being in hospital , hospital staff , it's blurry . It's so ...I don't know , I don't know to this day , gap between hospital and being back in police car , like someone snapped fingers and I woke up in that car , with that officer , short of breath , scared to death , asking for my inhalers . He laughing , saying really , really , you gonna try pull that up on me . You b.... , you stupid b.... .
I know I asked where he's taking me , for it was long , long ride . And he saying to the place where I , and " my people " belong . Then blank again , then I'm someplace , prison , jail . He's there , standing ,telling me to take of my clothes . I'm holding my head with my hands , asking not to take my hijab . He pulled it of my head , throw on the floor , stepping on it and making motion like turning off cigarette . Once he pulled my hijab , I cried out loud . At that time two or three female police officers come to me , looking at him , asking what he thinks he is doing . Why is he there , what he did to me . I remember asking for my hijab back . I remember they asking him to leave , saying that he did enough . He telling them not to listen to me . Then again , blank , gap , I don't know .
Then doctor saying , " You'll have to wait , she's to weak , and heart beating is like 150 " . I don't know where I was or for how long , till I remember camera snapshot . Then someone saying you can go ,and in disbelief confused , I'm saying , go where ? Go home.. but I don't know where I am . They told me , and I was like where is my home , how do I get there . You can get bus , or cab . I have no idea what's going on . I just wished to die . They gave me phone and keys , and I asked for the rest of my things , they said that's all that officer who brought me gave them . They closed door .. cold ... scary.. I was in , I think waiting room . I was looking at my phone , time that was showing confused me even more . Who can I call , I don't have anyone , beside doctors , case workers in my contact list .
Case worker , Janet , she's my only hope , beside God . I called her ...may God bless her , she answered , I heard " Ada?, Ada , is that you? " I was crying . "Ada , please , tell me where are you , what happened " . I told her that I have some paperwork that has address on , and I told her what lady officer told me when I asked her where I am . She said she'll be there as soon as possible , cause she lives like an hour from there but she's coming and she asked me to calm down cause she said I can get seizure or so , so please try to calm down , she said .
I promised her that I will . I was so cold , shaking , weak . It seemed forever till Jannet showed up . I was so happy to see her . She hugged me and took me to her car , her son was there . She said not to worry , just try to calm down , everything will be fine . She told me to try to lay my head down , cause , she said it will help me relax , and heat will help too . She covered me with something and told her son to turn heat on. We got to my home , she told me she'll take me in and put me in bed , to rest , and well talk in the morning .
We talked next day , everything end up , at least on their part , they did everything . I also did complain against officer that arrested me , cause I also went to clinic next day cause my hand was injured when officer had me on the ground , like the worst criminal .
And , still , years later , I'm having nightmares , I never recovered from that horrible experience . It was , and still is fsomething that will hunt me till my last breath .And what's worse , and my reason for writing this , I just recently find .mugshot of myself from that night , mugshot taken for something so unjust , so unfair , so unbelievable . And it's there where anyone can see it , and think of me being criminal cause Walmart security thought I didn't pay cardboard box , never bothered to check my receipt , allow police officer to assault me in front of them , took my things , that they knew was pad for , which make them thief , they stole from me , cause one officer told them that he believed I stole everything , no matter that they knew for sure that's not truth .
For years I was afraid of police , all of them in uniform , instead feeling safe , because of action of one I was afraid of all And in case I needed help I was afraid to look for help from them . Years later I got courage to go with my case worker to Walmart to try retrieve my property . When I told them why I'm there , people I spoke to , manager at that time , and assistant , they said that they can't believe something like that happened in Walmart , that Walmart staff allowed it , and took my stuff , but they can only apologise , get me gift card for reimbursement , and welcome me back to store . Also , if I need assistance while I'm in store , someone will always help me . I was , I'm not sure , such a mixture of feelings , angry , upset , irritated , in disbelief , how can they think it's so simple .
Oh , yeah , they said there was big change in whole Walmart , staff that used to work at the time is no longer working for Walmart , so they can't do nothing about action they did . I told them that I don't won't their gift cards , I wanted my things , for they took not just what I purchased but also what I had in my backpack when I come to stor . My case manager told me , at least to take gift cards , but I refused . Pain is still here , and fear that people actually believe I'm a recognized me .
How can I help myself . I have paperwork that everything is dismissed but mugshot still exist . Are things like this something that happened a lot , people getting arrested just cause police officer believe what he wants to believe, and decides to do what he wants , and with no question asked have someone's mugshot just like that ?
Does people really get mugshot and let go with no further action ?
Thank you ,
Sincerely , " Looking Justice "
P.S. I apologize if is unclear what I'm trying to say in all this writing , still causing hurt even thinking about that event ( I'll call it even )
Hi ,
First , I'm not sure how this works , what should I ask , or not ask , so , I'm sorry if I'm doing it wrong .
This " thing " is eating me alive , and has been for to long .
So , I will really appreciate if someone can help me .
Back in 2011 , I was in Walmart store getting few things . I was in hurry , cause it was getting late and I was afraid to walk back home in dark . I came to store mostly cause I needed couple more cardboard boxes to finish packing , and since I was in store I got few more things ( milk , cookies , some snacks , etc.) .
I was checking out at self check line .
I was trying to scan box , but barcode was to far to scan , so I asked for assistance from cashier . She was checking the screen , and told me that I need to manually enter the code twice , for I told her that I tried both boxes . She's like " Just enter 2 , for two boxes , so you don't have to do another box whole entering " . I did that , finished scanning , paid , put things in my backpack , and at the exit grabbed both boxes from cart , and proceed leaving . I was approaching street when I heard someone calling " miss , miss .." .
At first I didn't pay attention , but it seemed like the voice was closer to me , so I turned around , and I have seen to people waving to me , and asking to stop . I yelled back that I'm in hurry , and what they need . They said , just wait , and I said , I'm sorry but I must go . At that point police car , which I didn't noticed even coming , crossed my way , stopped , police officer came out , around car , gabbed me and pushed against car .
As God is my witness , I didn't know what's going on . He was pushing me so hard while he was putting on handcuffs , that I started to cry ,asking him , please , stop , you're hurting me . What's going on , why do you doing this . At which point he start laughing , and people that were behind me , also approach us . Police officer then asked them what I did ? They told him that I didn't pay for one cardboard box . (All my stuff was already on the ground when police officer grabbed me , he also grabbed my backpack from my back and throw it on the ground , and I believe I just let boxes out of my hands when he was handcuffed me .). He replied that he knew as soon as he saw me that I must have been stealing . They said , they are security , and that they need me to go back to store . I was still crying cause I was in pain . I told them that I didn't steal anything and they can check receipt . One of them said that they didn't see me scanning two boxes , just one . And they will check receipt once we get to store .
I told them , please , it's getting dark and I have to go home . And then officer pushed me even harder saying " You think you're going home ? That "b... not gonna happen so soon . And once that happens , you will tell your Bosnian people that they are in America , and they can't do what they doing . And I know b.... that you didn't steal box , you stole all this things you have with you ." Then he said to security people that they can take everything from backpack , and boxes , cause he's sure I stole everything . I wasn't feeling well , I asked security guard to help me .
They were just standing there . I was bagging them to help , cause I don't feel good . Officer pushed his elbow against my back and I just fainted . I remember screaming at that point . I remember security telling officer that they can take it from there , they just need me to go back to store and clear things up . I remember being so scared , I thought I'll pass out , from fear . I remember , even now , at this very moment , like reliving it , officer telling them to take things and let him take care of me . By that time , I was still on the ground , he's foot on my back , pain in my arms , face , legs , chest , head , against ground . I remember , I said , please , please let me go , it's hurting , please I'm not feeling well .
I felt my seizure coming and I was so scared , as always when I know that I'm about to have seizure . After that moment , everything is like nightmare , horrible , never forgetting nightmare . I have recollection , pieces of memory , pause , horrific realization that is not just nightmare of past , of things happen in past , but reality , happening there and then , where and when I believed in safety . I remember there was ambulance , voices , someone saying " You'll be ok " , " Can you tell me your name " , I was trying , but like most of the time after seizure I can hear , I can see , but I can't respond , and I don't remember when exactly started or ended . I remember being in hospital , hospital staff , it's blurry . It's so ...I don't know , I don't know to this day , gap between hospital and being back in police car , like someone snapped fingers and I woke up in that car , with that officer , short of breath , scared to death , asking for my inhalers . He laughing , saying really , really , you gonna try pull that up on me . You b.... , you stupid b.... .
I know I asked where he's taking me , for it was long , long ride . And he saying to the place where I , and " my people " belong . Then blank again , then I'm someplace , prison , jail . He's there , standing ,telling me to take of my clothes . I'm holding my head with my hands , asking not to take my hijab . He pulled it of my head , throw on the floor , stepping on it and making motion like turning off cigarette . Once he pulled my hijab , I cried out loud . At that time two or three female police officers come to me , looking at him , asking what he thinks he is doing . Why is he there , what he did to me . I remember asking for my hijab back . I remember they asking him to leave , saying that he did enough . He telling them not to listen to me . Then again , blank , gap , I don't know .
Then doctor saying , " You'll have to wait , she's to weak , and heart beating is like 150 " . I don't know where I was or for how long , till I remember camera snapshot . Then someone saying you can go ,and in disbelief confused , I'm saying , go where ? Go home.. but I don't know where I am . They told me , and I was like where is my home , how do I get there . You can get bus , or cab . I have no idea what's going on . I just wished to die . They gave me phone and keys , and I asked for the rest of my things , they said that's all that officer who brought me gave them . They closed door .. cold ... scary.. I was in , I think waiting room . I was looking at my phone , time that was showing confused me even more . Who can I call , I don't have anyone , beside doctors , case workers in my contact list .
Case worker , Janet , she's my only hope , beside God . I called her ...may God bless her , she answered , I heard " Ada?, Ada , is that you? " I was crying . "Ada , please , tell me where are you , what happened " . I told her that I have some paperwork that has address on , and I told her what lady officer told me when I asked her where I am . She said she'll be there as soon as possible , cause she lives like an hour from there but she's coming and she asked me to calm down cause she said I can get seizure or so , so please try to calm down , she said .
I promised her that I will . I was so cold , shaking , weak . It seemed forever till Jannet showed up . I was so happy to see her . She hugged me and took me to her car , her son was there . She said not to worry , just try to calm down , everything will be fine . She told me to try to lay my head down , cause , she said it will help me relax , and heat will help too . She covered me with something and told her son to turn heat on. We got to my home , she told me she'll take me in and put me in bed , to rest , and well talk in the morning .
We talked next day , everything end up , at least on their part , they did everything . I also did complain against officer that arrested me , cause I also went to clinic next day cause my hand was injured when officer had me on the ground , like the worst criminal .
And , still , years later , I'm having nightmares , I never recovered from that horrible experience . It was , and still is fsomething that will hunt me till my last breath .And what's worse , and my reason for writing this , I just recently find .mugshot of myself from that night , mugshot taken for something so unjust , so unfair , so unbelievable . And it's there where anyone can see it , and think of me being criminal cause Walmart security thought I didn't pay cardboard box , never bothered to check my receipt , allow police officer to assault me in front of them , took my things , that they knew was pad for , which make them thief , they stole from me , cause one officer told them that he believed I stole everything , no matter that they knew for sure that's not truth .
For years I was afraid of police , all of them in uniform , instead feeling safe , because of action of one I was afraid of all And in case I needed help I was afraid to look for help from them . Years later I got courage to go with my case worker to Walmart to try retrieve my property . When I told them why I'm there , people I spoke to , manager at that time , and assistant , they said that they can't believe something like that happened in Walmart , that Walmart staff allowed it , and took my stuff , but they can only apologise , get me gift card for reimbursement , and welcome me back to store . Also , if I need assistance while I'm in store , someone will always help me . I was , I'm not sure , such a mixture of feelings , angry , upset , irritated , in disbelief , how can they think it's so simple .
Oh , yeah , they said there was big change in whole Walmart , staff that used to work at the time is no longer working for Walmart , so they can't do nothing about action they did . I told them that I don't won't their gift cards , I wanted my things , for they took not just what I purchased but also what I had in my backpack when I come to stor . My case manager told me , at least to take gift cards , but I refused . Pain is still here , and fear that people actually believe I'm a recognized me .
How can I help myself . I have paperwork that everything is dismissed but mugshot still exist . Are things like this something that happened a lot , people getting arrested just cause police officer believe what he wants to believe, and decides to do what he wants , and with no question asked have someone's mugshot just like that ?
Does people really get mugshot and let go with no further action ?
Thank you ,
Sincerely , " Looking Justice "
P.S. I apologize if is unclear what I'm trying to say in all this writing , still causing hurt even thinking about that event ( I'll call it even )
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